“My Love Letter to You, DR”

Do You realize, DR, that We (You & Me) are Connected right now? Virtually, sure, but We are still Connected, Conceptually, IRL. And – If You continue reading this Story – I want You to know something Key: You are giving Me Your consent to enter Your Own SB.

And what will I be doing there, You ask? Well, in this particular Story, *Spoiler Alert!* Imma set off a few mental grenades. Here’s the first one:

“You Already Have Everything You Need.”

And here’s Why paying attention to the Context always matters. You might be sitting there, distracted by whatev, and reading this Story here, and when You see those words strung together in that particular order? TECH immediately jumps up to say the following:

“Bullsh#t, Conner! I most certainly do Not have “everything I need!?!” There’s a lot of sh#t I don’t have right now! Money, a job, a home, any Friends, Family, etc. etc. You f#cker! You don’t know Me!!” *grrrrrrrrr, rowr, hisssss, snap-crackle-pop*

[N: breathe! Breathe… keep breathing. lemme finish pls]

Here comes what I refer to as “The relevant Context.”

Every Story You read here will do one of two things. One? Some detail will resonate for You, DR, in Your Own SB. Or two… it will Plant a Seed for You.

Any Human Being You verbally talk to, any movie You watch, book You read – all those activities Plant Seeds for Your SB. And those Seeds? Super important. Seeds are what My Subconscious Brain ‘eats.’ Just like pizza & tacos keep My Physical Body alive? These Seeds keep My SB alive. These Seeds give Me ideas. They change My Own Perspective. And true – sometimes they hurt. [N: “growing pains”]

Either of these two results? Accurate. Correct. “Functioning as designed.” And No, sometimes You aren’t gonna ‘like’ it. But liking isn’t promised, in anything IRL.

But here’s Why I wanted to write You this Love Letter, DR, and that is to tell You a secret:

“There. Is. No. Test.”

But whether or not You, personally, are killing this level of The Game – or completely crashing & burning in Current Day [N: like a phoenix] – everything You see? Everything You do?  Everything You feel/dream/Experience? It’s all by design. Seriously. And No, I know that sounds very ‘Bible-Thumper’-esque, but please don’t label Me in Your SB as such. [N: it’s totally not accurate]

One last thing: All these Stories where revealed to Me – My guess, here – because I Experienced a sh#tload of trauma in My Life already. But not just that I Experienced it: I Survived it. I didn’t succeed in offing Myself – although I did try once or twice – and because I’m still here? I believe the Universe rewarded Me. “Threw Me a bone,” as it were. So what am I gonna do now? Imma leave My Own mark on this External World. Because I wanna be… remembered. I wanna believe My Life means something, here, now, and will continue to mean something long after I’ve leveled up.

My guess? “Being Remembered” is what every Human Being wants. IMO

/CR