*mental grenade explodes*
“But-But-But Conner?! That’s Crazy Talk!?! “
Yes, DR, I agree with You. It Is air-quotes ‘Crazy Talk.’ All of My verbal speech is.
But – and this is a big butt – You think this because You, Friend, do not have any access to the inside of My head. You may not know, yet, why I am using these specific words in this specific order – those reasons are UNKN to You, and maybe always be TBH – but I am here to definitively state [N: for The Record] that there are reasons for literally everything I say out loud.
And You? It’s a matter of how good of a Guesser You are.
*boom*
I am exactly like a Child. No, I Am a Child. Children – as a Rule – start out PASSION-Primary [N: until the World starts f#cking Them all up AKA “Parents” usually] But this is what makes Me… “Special.” And No, there’s nothing wrong with acknowledging My Own strengths… it’s actually mandatory, because then “how would I accurately identify My Own weaknesses? How would I know “what I need to work on?” DUh.
But back to My Story.
A Buddy of Mines recently came to crash at My Sanctuary, as My Guest. Him, and his Son. [N: approximately age 7 yrs, for the Audience]
My Buddy is a total TECH-brainer, through and through. It’s aggravating as f#ck to Me, personally, but I’m guessing it’s because TECH-Primary Folks are drawn to Me because – internally, sub-consciously – They seek “Equilibrium.” They ‘feel’ & ‘see’ & ‘sense’ that They are unbalanced, somehow, and want to smooth out the rough edges. I totally get it.
But, it takes a lot of My energy, TBH, to interact with Them IRL. I do so, willingly, sure… but it still takes energy. Just like it takes money to keep the lights on around here.
BB2MS. again.
My Buddy is a behavioral “Know-It-All” so I’ve already figured out – through Trial & Error – just pummeling Him with Conceptual data does nothing to balance Him out. And so, I had to tweak My Own process and figure out a better way to allow Him to acquire the necessary data in such a way as to “trick” His SB. A way to get past His manifested roadblocks.
“I had to build a Better Mousetrap.”
A bunch of times, My Buddy’s Auto-Pilot kicks in, and TECH verbally “rejects” what I am communicating right now, but like a Good Chicken I “keep pecking at it.” Because My highest Priority is usually “the Relationship” so I will actively & with full awareness sacrifice other wants/desires to achieve My most important goal in that moment.
But here’s what Mike isn’t aware of… And here’s Why I’ve already “Won.”
I don’t say anything I say, out loud, because I need You to agree with it, DR. I say everything I say – and I do everything I do – for the Audience. If We (You & Me) are “out in Public” right now? You are not the only Watcher of My antics. You are not the only Listener of My Stories. The Entire World is Watching.
And so I know that when I say or do something, whoever is IRL-AKA-physically “Present” when I am doing or saying it? All the SBs within distance will acquire the data, automatically. It’s just My SB, functioning as designed.
I don’t need to know or care Who is Listening. Why? Because I know what I am saying & Why I am saying it… and I trust in the Universe enough to know that when You, specifically DR, need to ‘get’ it? You will… probably In Hindsight.
*BOOM*
. . .
Conner’s Comments: I can tell whenever I am Connecting with any OP, IRL, where on the Equilibrium spectrum They are, in Current Day. And then I know how to “deal with Them,” tweaking My Own process & gathering New mutually-acquired interpersonal relationship Experience data as We go along.
But in case You are wondering, DR, Why I don’t keep updating the Nomanclature page on this-AKA-My website? It’s because these terms aren’t relevant – unless You are reading the actual Story they pertain to. That part of the Story hasn’t been written yet. It’s potentially Context that “isn’t needed” and so I’ve learned not to let the cat outta the bag prematurely. Too many details ruins a good Story… and Me? I am All about the Storytelling.